its sundaay (:

& im terribly missing my fiance, he's my everything and im really going crazy, that really can show how much someone means to you . I MISS HIM & i jst cant wait to hold him, jst his arms around me and my arms around him, priceless ;].

Dear Marcus Jones,

YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE .
i love you and im counting down the days,
we're at fifty !! i love you ...


xoxo,
MRS.JONES !

LET GO & LET GOD

i really got very emotional with this song,
this isnt my battle, this isnt my battle to fight,
so i will let go and let god and eventually i will
be back with the butterflies and flowers,


I`M PUTTING IT IN HIS HANDS & I WILL BE ALRIGHT,


howcome`: i see pictures and moments of us in slow motion playing w. this song;
BUT NOW, I`LL LET GO AND LET GOD !!

xoxo,
tyler

'worry free'.

ONE LOVE .

i jst broke one of my biggest addictions, twitter.com !!
it failed me ;[ i lost the most important part of me
for good !! partially because of twitter . although i lost him,
and hes not coming back, i deleted so it wont fail me w. the next guy .
it'll be a while, long while before that even comes into question,
i jst have to focus on me and what i have going on for myself , this is
my time to jst accomplish back to back !!

well, currently looking for a new job, i wish i was eighteen so i could
get an office job, i really want customer service to start me off .
so it could be on my resume for when applying for nursing jobs (:

uhm what else, food is starting to become less harmful, i jst need to
beat my pepsi addiction,

i must make a doctor visit soon, ive been feeling side pains, non stop!!
i hope its not serious ,

QOD : if i were not going to be here tomorrow what would you say to me today ?

xoxo
tyler .

assumptions will get YOU killed .. or jst hurt !!

"you can push a girl so much until she finally decides to walk out on her own".

K.O.

its jst a fight i can`t win !!

so far grown ...

There’s no way I could describe him
All I say is, just what I’m hoping for !!






septermber 29th,2009 !! uhm let's not mark this day down in the calender next year LOL !! my sister came in town (: yerrrr !! she'll help through this tough time, well it's only tough if i be tough on myself, jst will try to breeze through !!

be thankful for the ones who are in your life, in the blink of an eye they could be goneee !!


my mom got a new laptop (: yerrrrr !!
were going live with it lol .

DUDE, my glasses need to hurry, im growing blind more each and everyday !!


i have butterflies, (: i jst sent HIM a text !! i`m scared likee a bitch, well adios amigos i have work @ eleven a.m. !!!

xoxo
TYLER J. [forever and a day].

HABIT BREAKING !

in order to change yourself, you must first break all bad habits . the next nine & a half weeks will go to me and my habits, breaking bad ones and making good ones! i've noticed i constantly repeat the same actions causing negative effects on everything around me. i'm ready for positive and heart warming effects. ALSO knowing where your mistake is always helps because right before you make it, you can stop yourself from making it. i've noticed i always make accusations or judge before actually knowing what someone is about and or what they have going on. NOT saying it'll change right now or tomorrow BUT it will change as the time goes on! i've also decided to make goals for myself, actually in all honesty a friend (nicholas matthews) encouraged me to make one. short and long term goals. i'm very excited to start on them. also im close to god but not as close as i should be. TOMORROW MORNING back in the church for the first time in five years. i'm ready to better myself so i can have a better future,positive activities and a healthy life. with this being my last year of school"the future is now"-M.Jones; i have no time to sit and wait for everything to come to me, i have to STOP being lazy and do what i have to do for me and mines NO IF,ANDS OR BUTS! im so ready for alll of it, of course it wont be easy but i'll jst push myself . the sky isnt the limit, im ready for it all! i want my family to have what i never had. im working for my future family, for the finer things in life. IM WORKING TO BE SOMEBODY! im working to challenge myself in all the ways possible! NOTHING can stop me now, no breaks until im comfortable where im at, everyone around me eating good! so with all of this being said, JUST WATCH! no talking, all actions

xoxo
TYLER HARRIS!

September 7th,2009

it's been a minute BUT now im back (:

so since the last time i've blogged, i've gotten employed!
YAY MEEEEEEEE! , so i start my whole homeschool thing on tuesday;
yipppieeee! long story, BUT it's cool, i'm super ready for winter ! it will be great, im doing some great things w. myself, i'll be glad after i graduate, i'm going to nursing school, i hope OUR plans go as planned! it'll POW everyone! jst saying,

mmhmm,i've been working non stop the last two weeks like crazyyy!
i actually broke down ! jst being drained and not being able to handle it!
ohhh well,

BUT like i've been really driving, & i think im pretty good, LOL so does she, so i'll
be driving a lot more often, nahhh im saying? LOL, dont answer that, well how are you guys? my fellow readers!? aha, not like i'll get an answer, BUT yeaa, thats pretty much it .


HOLLYWOOD KISSES! xoxoxo
VOGUEEEEEEEEEEE!

Senior Sunrise,

With school two days away, im more excited than ever. Jst knowing that in nine months im on my own and i will be a month away from being an adult. It feels good, But im also scared, scared of the real world, what the future has in store for me. Although im excited and anxious to leave the nest it will be the hardest thing ever, leaving my mom who is my backbone. I cant and wont depend on her anymore, i will be an adult living by my own rules, doing my own things. I guess you can say im mature, more mature than your typical seventeen year old. I just want to jump my career off, life after highschool [stay tuned for that]. LOL, im sOo serious and i really want to meet me in two years. I'm really scared to fail. I don't want to be that girl, that had all the high hopes and dreams and it all crumbled right in front of her eyes. I want to be that girl on top. The girl that inspires people to make it to the top. I WILL BE THAT GIRL. I don't want to struggle. I want a nice career, a nice family, nice things. I want everything to just fall right in place, not a second to early or a minute late. I know it will take a lot of work BUT i'm determined!

FRIENDS!

ones we can depend on!
friends,! how many of us have them!?



i misss my ex ex bestfriend aaron xoxo!

Pronunciation: \ə-ˈdik-shən, a-\

1 : the quality or state of being addicted


addiction.

i have three major addictions @ the moment!
mom.
boyfriend.
materialistic things.

i can't live w.out my mom, she's my spine! i absolutely don't know where i'd
be w.out her! i know one day i'll leave the nest, BUT she's always going to be
where i am no matter what!

i don't want to live w.out my boyfriend! he's beyond important to me. we share so much! i'm actually glad we didn't start younger than we did, if we did we most likely
wouldn't be where we are now! & i know that for a fact!

materialist things make me happy & is a part of my second love [FASHION].

those are my addictions & im perfectly fine w. the fact that im addicted to those three things!

touche!

THE ACT OF!

Self.ish.ness!
n.
The quality or state of being selfish; exclusive regard to one's own interest or happiness; that supreme self-love or self-preference which leads a person to direct his purposes to the advancement of his own interest, power, or happiness, without regarding those of others.


Selfishness, -- a vice utterly at variance with the happiness of him who harbors it, and, as such, condemned by self-love.
Sir J. Mackintosh.

Syn. -- See Self-love.

SUPERHUMAN!

i feel so super human .

STRONG, since i've been flying and righting them wrongs!

it feels as if everyday my outlook on a lot of things change!
& i'm glad it does. I mean you don't want to go everyday w. the same
outlook on everything you see, hear, or touch! RIGHT?! right!

1300 hundred miles away & i feel we're doing great! AGREE?! agreed!
haha, @ me answering both of those questions w. the same word! haha,
i'm ready to go shopping .

jst bought this dress! i like the look of it, BUT not on me! didn't try it on
in the store, jst got it; IT fits great until you get to my stomach area, you'd
think i was some months pregnant LOL!


ALSO, i bought this floral blouse, it's adorable! DON'T know when i'm going to ever
wear it! BUT it definitely looks nice in my closet,

I've been look around to shop! & it seems everyone shops @ the same places, soo i guess it's time to OUTSHINE everyone, like i haven't already! haha!

i love to upstagee you girls w. no type of clue! it lets me know how much i stand out! I LOVE IT!


ANYWAY might i add, i hate you little vegas bitches!
always talking shit knowing that if we were 5 feet away
you wouldn't even breathe around me! jst know what type of GIRLS you are

when ya'll become WOMEN then talking shit won't be a priority! jst saying!

AUGUST 24th. 09

first day of SEN10R yeaar! woot. woot.
[14 DAYS LEFT].

october twenty-fifth . two thousand and seven!

Thinkin back, to the feelin that I had when I first saw your face, I knew that it was youuu,, some time has passed, and the feelings that I had before still are the sameee, caaaause youuu never changed, nooo

Even though I don't show it babe, I juuust want youuu to knoowww, that even if we fight a million times over little things, we can still make it better I meant what I said when you gave me that promise ring, that imma love youu forever, I fall for you deeper everyday, feel it now boy more than ever, but with our type of love, forever aint enough

I've been searchin my whole life, I'm lucky I found youu, no better guy, you aint leavin cause forever aint enough you see me for who I am and not for who I'm not no, I'm tellin you that I'm sooorry if I tend to treat you the wrong way but I care you know my heart is there

Even though, I don't show it babe
I just want you to know
That even if we fight,
Even if we fight a couple times over little things
We can still make it better
I meant what I said when you gave me that promise ring,
I'mma love you forever
I fall for you deeper everyday
And I'm feeling it more than ever
But with our type of love, forever ain't enough


I love You!