Senior Sunrise,

With school two days away, im more excited than ever. Jst knowing that in nine months im on my own and i will be a month away from being an adult. It feels good, But im also scared, scared of the real world, what the future has in store for me. Although im excited and anxious to leave the nest it will be the hardest thing ever, leaving my mom who is my backbone. I cant and wont depend on her anymore, i will be an adult living by my own rules, doing my own things. I guess you can say im mature, more mature than your typical seventeen year old. I just want to jump my career off, life after highschool [stay tuned for that]. LOL, im sOo serious and i really want to meet me in two years. I'm really scared to fail. I don't want to be that girl, that had all the high hopes and dreams and it all crumbled right in front of her eyes. I want to be that girl on top. The girl that inspires people to make it to the top. I WILL BE THAT GIRL. I don't want to struggle. I want a nice career, a nice family, nice things. I want everything to just fall right in place, not a second to early or a minute late. I know it will take a lot of work BUT i'm determined!

FRIENDS!

ones we can depend on!
friends,! how many of us have them!?



i misss my ex ex bestfriend aaron xoxo!

Pronunciation: \ə-ˈdik-shən, a-\

1 : the quality or state of being addicted


addiction.

i have three major addictions @ the moment!
mom.
boyfriend.
materialistic things.

i can't live w.out my mom, she's my spine! i absolutely don't know where i'd
be w.out her! i know one day i'll leave the nest, BUT she's always going to be
where i am no matter what!

i don't want to live w.out my boyfriend! he's beyond important to me. we share so much! i'm actually glad we didn't start younger than we did, if we did we most likely
wouldn't be where we are now! & i know that for a fact!

materialist things make me happy & is a part of my second love [FASHION].

those are my addictions & im perfectly fine w. the fact that im addicted to those three things!

touche!

THE ACT OF!

Self.ish.ness!
n.
The quality or state of being selfish; exclusive regard to one's own interest or happiness; that supreme self-love or self-preference which leads a person to direct his purposes to the advancement of his own interest, power, or happiness, without regarding those of others.


Selfishness, -- a vice utterly at variance with the happiness of him who harbors it, and, as such, condemned by self-love.
Sir J. Mackintosh.

Syn. -- See Self-love.

SUPERHUMAN!

i feel so super human .

STRONG, since i've been flying and righting them wrongs!

it feels as if everyday my outlook on a lot of things change!
& i'm glad it does. I mean you don't want to go everyday w. the same
outlook on everything you see, hear, or touch! RIGHT?! right!

1300 hundred miles away & i feel we're doing great! AGREE?! agreed!
haha, @ me answering both of those questions w. the same word! haha,
i'm ready to go shopping .

jst bought this dress! i like the look of it, BUT not on me! didn't try it on
in the store, jst got it; IT fits great until you get to my stomach area, you'd
think i was some months pregnant LOL!


ALSO, i bought this floral blouse, it's adorable! DON'T know when i'm going to ever
wear it! BUT it definitely looks nice in my closet,

I've been look around to shop! & it seems everyone shops @ the same places, soo i guess it's time to OUTSHINE everyone, like i haven't already! haha!

i love to upstagee you girls w. no type of clue! it lets me know how much i stand out! I LOVE IT!


ANYWAY might i add, i hate you little vegas bitches!
always talking shit knowing that if we were 5 feet away
you wouldn't even breathe around me! jst know what type of GIRLS you are

when ya'll become WOMEN then talking shit won't be a priority! jst saying!

AUGUST 24th. 09

first day of SEN10R yeaar! woot. woot.
[14 DAYS LEFT].

october twenty-fifth . two thousand and seven!

Thinkin back, to the feelin that I had when I first saw your face, I knew that it was youuu,, some time has passed, and the feelings that I had before still are the sameee, caaaause youuu never changed, nooo

Even though I don't show it babe, I juuust want youuu to knoowww, that even if we fight a million times over little things, we can still make it better I meant what I said when you gave me that promise ring, that imma love youu forever, I fall for you deeper everyday, feel it now boy more than ever, but with our type of love, forever aint enough

I've been searchin my whole life, I'm lucky I found youu, no better guy, you aint leavin cause forever aint enough you see me for who I am and not for who I'm not no, I'm tellin you that I'm sooorry if I tend to treat you the wrong way but I care you know my heart is there

Even though, I don't show it babe
I just want you to know
That even if we fight,
Even if we fight a couple times over little things
We can still make it better
I meant what I said when you gave me that promise ring,
I'mma love you forever
I fall for you deeper everyday
And I'm feeling it more than ever
But with our type of love, forever ain't enough


I love You!